Dear Diary | Get Through It Not Over It!

January 19, 2014 |  LOVE EMBRACE INSPIRE | By Adjanae Mensah

Dear Diary,

Recently, someone that was very dear to my heart completely broke my heart and betrayed my trust. Typically when I'm hurt, I'd be hurt for a little while then go straight from being hurt to... "you know what? I'm over it". I Hated the thought of another human being making me feel like that! I was also brought up by my mother that way.. Due to her own personal experiences, she was very much a "get over it" person, and as I grew older I became pretty good at the whole "getting over it" thing.

This situation was a very different though, I somehow couldn't get over the hurt and the pain. It just wouldn't go away! And I was so focused on the pain& trying to get over it that I didn't even take the situation to God. One evening, I decided to go out for a walk,  I got to the park sat down on the grass, and I broke down.. I finally cried out to God. I needed his help. "Lord why does this still hurt so bad? I don't want to feel this pain anymore, I don't want to cry anymore." I cried out to God from the deepest parts of me and told Him I wasn't going to leave till He took the pain away. I sat there waiting for this heartache to go away, but instead I received a word from The Lord. He said to me:

"You need to start dealing with certain issues. Stop trying to get OVER situations by your own strength and start getting THROUGH them with me & by my Grace....My grace is more that sufficient for you."
Initially I was so annoyed!!! It was really NOT what I was trying to hear! Getting THROUGH it meant it was going to be a process, that I was going to have to accept and address the very things I had been trying to avoid, and could possibly more pain and tears. UGH..I remember telling God, "I just don't have time for all of this!" Even though He was right, (He always is). He took me to His word in Isaiah 41:13 that says...

"For I am the LORD your God, the one who takes hold of your right hand, who say to you, "Dont be afraid, I am helping you."

This gave me enough confidence to step out in faith, to leave all my worries behind and trust His word, and to know that everything He does is for my good, to get me to be the woman He requires me to be. So after fighting it for a while I finally submitted to Him.

It's been about a month since I decided to do things God's way, and it has not been easy at all! He never said it would be, but He did promise to be there with me every step of the way and to get through it with me, and that's is exactly what He's been doing . My upbringing, circumstances, and the things I continuously fed myself with in terms of what I watched and listened to, made forget that it's okay to be vulnerable... that when I get hurt it's okay to be emotional. I focused on getting over it quickly rather than getting through it properly, and ended up with layers and layers of hurt and pain. Although I'm not where I WANT to be, I'm well on my way to being where I NEED to be. Although it's been a tough journey, I believe it's been worth it, the more I allow God to have His way, the more He peels away the layers of pain, sets me free, and draws me closer to Him.

I still cry sometimes but I've learnt that that's okay, it's all part of the process. I'm really in love with God right now, He's been teaching me so much and I'm grateful to know a love like His, a love that heals and restores, a love that is unfailing.

Until next time..

His beautiful princess.

About The Author

Adjanae Mensah - Love & Relationships, Dear Diary
Adjanae Mensah is a young woman after God's own heart. Living in London, England, Adjanae seeks to inspire, uplift and encourage women all over the world to seek God in all aspects of their lives.
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